Holla At Me

Damn I haven't blogged since Obama won. What the hell!

Why is it a Sunday and I'm sipping? Oh well, such is life.

So this weekend was a bit slow. Friday I went to one of my favorite restaurants in Bklyn..oooh how I love that place. If they didn't cost so much I would go there every week.

Went to a reggae party on Friday and suprisingly it got crowded pretty early (1am). I was surprised because all the Jamaican parties I usually go to, I take a nap in the corner by the speaker..lol...then wake up at 3am when everyone shows up. Sorry, I get to the club before they start charging. I don't see the purpose in paying unless it's someone's birthday or Christmas uhmm maybe even Thanksgiving.

But this was the cool thing about this particular party. I was able to sneak a water bottle of jesus water into the spot. They weren't checking bags when my homegirl and I walked in. Then I thought, let me see if I can get that bottle in here. 

I walked back to the car. sidenote: Don't you hate when you have to sneak into your own damn car cause there are so many other ppl waiting for a park that when they see you pull out your key they are on your ass. "you leaving", they'll ask. "Nah", now please move on because I'm by myself and yall look suspect as hell. I put an empty water bottle into my purse along with the Jesus juice as a decoy. I walked into the club and the bouncer said "open your bag" and he saw the water bottle, but low and behold mama had the alcohol in a secret compartment. I got in with my juice, I'll def be returning there again.   

Why was that the highlight of my night...lmaoo. Saturday was chilled, finally picked up my dinner table and just chilled with the parentals. Anywho, how did your weekend go?

OBAMA WINS!!!!!!!!!!

I'M CRYING!!!!!! I'm not the one for tears but this got to me.  Our first black president, do you know what this means. There is a black woman who will be in a white house who won't be a slave,  who won't be the help. Just years ago our grandparents couldn't vote and now we have a black man in the white house. Damn yall.

Oh Obama I hope there will be change and you will show us even more history making. McCain you gave him a good fight but Obama is the man. Now as I watch McCain speaking, I see the tears welling up in his eyes. But it will be ok, there will be change, there has to be CHANGE.

Young people there is no excuse anymore. With our first black president, there is not limit.

First people I spoke to: My Dad, DKH, JSM, DAG, CDA.  

Where was I: At home, in WB,  sippin on that...

I will never forget this day.

I Need Another Job Just So I Can Go To The Movies

WTF....

trying to see Saw V tonight

I want to buy the ticks before hand

cause you know how crazy people get at the movie theatres (especially on the movies first night) and its FRIDAY...

so I am about to buy the ticks online

through Fandango

and 2 mofo ticks cost 25$ fing bucks... why is there a $2 service charge? Why does one ticket cost $11.50? I can get a outfit at Forever 21 for $11.50, well not really but you know what I mean...

This is some shit

Almost Missing

I find myself missing someone I shouldn’t. I hate when that happens and it usually occurs between “my boo” stages. It's when I just stopped dating someone and now I’m creeping for the next boo..lol. But why do I miss him?

I could be myself around him. I could curse, drink, yell and do other things without him looking at me weird or making me feel uncomfortable. That type of guy is hard to come by. The type, where you can sleep on his bare chest and drool (yeah when I’m that damn sleepy anything can happen lol) and when you wake up and realize what happened and your embarrassed as hell he wipes the spit off his chest and says “don’t worry about it” and puts your head back on his chest. DAMN! Or he’ll give you his last 20 dollars so you can get your hair done because he felt that is what a man should do.

But we’re not together for a reason. Although he showed me attention and cared for me, it wasn’t meant to last. He loved his homeboys way too much, he went to jail twice for 30 days and never told me why, what type of shit is that. To this day I still can’t believe I let him get away with that one lol. His ex, at the time I’m pretty sure she wasn’t his ex, kicked in the door while I was there (that’s another story). Then after a while he was just broke and didn’t want to do anything with his life but party and buy clothes. He wasn’t the dependable guy I knew before and I was over it.

So I guess I just miss the good things because the bad things are way up there too. I wonder how he’s doing it’s been a few months since we last spoke and he usually reappears every other month. So hopefully he’s happy or maybe missing me just a little too…haha.

Magic Pt 1- "I'm Ready"

The text came through and hit Kailah like a ton of bricks "I want you back" . She couldn't believe what she was reading. After 6 months the guy who she was trying to forget, the guy who she was working on erasing from her memory just threw a monkey wrench in her rehab process.

She stared at the words in disbelief.

Tony never had perfect timing, he always chose the wrong time to speak up, the wrong time to come back. She was happy now, happier with Mike than she had ever been in a long time. Things at her job were going great, she was working her way up to be the number one candidate for the next round of promotions, she was going to the gym every other day and getting her body more toned and healthy than ever, she even began to forget about him.

It was the first time in a couple of weeks that her mind forgot that a guy named Tony ever existed, that a guy named Tony was able to take her heart without even trying and without even caring.

Mike and Kailah were on their way to a night on the town. He had just picked her up and surprised her with flowers. After all these years he still knew what to do to make Kailah feel special. "Thank you sweetie, your so sweet" and she kissed him lightly but passionately on the lips before he drove off.

While Kailah wanted to stay focused on the beautiful warm summer night and all the fun she would have with Mike, she couldn't stop thinking about the text she just received. I'm not going to text back she decided. He doesn't mean it, he probably meant to text someone else, Tony would never text me that, she kept repeating in her head until she almost believed it.


Her phone vibrated again, she looked down, it was another text. "I know what your thinking but your wrong, I mean it and I'm ready, when can I see you?" ...

( 6 months earlier)

"Do what you want to do, he prob really loves you" Tony said matter of factly. Kailah stood their in disbelief. "That's all your going to say?, well, How do you feel about me?" she said.

There was silence, "Look, I told you already where I stand, so its your choice to make"

She wanted him to say something else, to tell her that he loved her and that he would be the man she always knew he could be. " I know its my choice but I just want to know how you feel about me, you never tell me, you don't show me, how am I just supposed to know?" Kailah said.



"Kailah, I care for you so I want you to be happy besides your looking for me to recite something from a movie, its not going to happen, you know who I am, you know what it is, if you have to question it then you should go back to what you know"

She wanted to yell "I WANT TO KNOW YOU, I WANT YOU" why couldn't he just see that.

Instead she said calmly "Look, I know who you are and I tried to accept that, I really did. You know I really like you, more than you know, I'm willing to take the risk with you and step out on the ledge, with you, if you can just look me in the eyes and tell me your willing to step out on the ledge too"


He paused looked at her and shook his head, instead of pulling her into his arms he looked away. "I really can't stay much longer, maybe we can discuss this another time." he said. He towered over her as he reached his arm out to hold up her chin, she was fighting back the tears, he kissed her on the cheek. "I'll call you later today" and he walked away. He never did call, she didn't hear from him again.....

Introducing Magic...

What happens when lovers who are meant to be never become? Old timers love to say "You always loose the first one". The first one who makes your skin tingle with an ever so gently touch, the one who makes you smile with just the sight of their face or the one who wanted to be yours but denied their heart. Welcome to a world of betrayal, love, joy, and heartache. Where emotions change on a whim.

Where a man believes that he has met his true love but is forced to hold back his feelings because she has a boyfriend. Insecurity plagues his heart, concealing the emotions he wants to share with her, but always holding back, will the day ever come where he professes his love?

Her love, is it him, she really wants?

Torn between the unknown and the planned future, what really lies ahead?

Him that I love, I wish to be free -- even from me.

Now you may be curious to what this is all about. Tune in weekly for Magic, a love story that all of us can relate to regardless of age, gender, or race. Supposedly love has no boundaries, but for some it does and for those who cross those boundaries find themselves in a world of unchartered land.

Oodles of Noodles

It's Monday and I had a hard time getting out of bed this morning. Lately I've been dragging my ass in the morning. I have to get a boost of energy so I can get my mornings poppin :)

Anywho, this weekend I was thinking a lot about relationships, maturing and accomplishing things in life. Sometimes I think women put this silent pressure on themselves to achieve this and that, by this age or that year. I do it to myself all the time and sometimes get stressed over it. We have that whole, I have to be married by the time I'm 28 and have kids by 30, it goes on and on.

But why do I feel the need to live life based off a plan. I can't be programmed and so many great things in life happen unexpectedly. It would be excellent to have everything I think I should have at this moment but I guess I'll get them in due time because if I thought things happened when I wanted them to, I would be an effin millionaire by now..haha.

I'm proud of myself for not dwelling on things I have cause my life is pretty damn good. It didn't happen overnight, the thought that my life was great, but compared to how it could be I'm on a pretty decent road to success.

I decided...

that I am a bigger person than what my last post stated and I let that damn ego take over, but yes it still is funny so if you missed it, you missed out...but to quote one of my new fav spiritual teachers, Eckhart Tolle

"Thinking, or more precisely identification with thinking, gives rise to and maintains the ego, which, in our Western society in particular, is out of control. It believes it is real and tries hard to maintain its supremacy. Negative states of mind, such as anger, resentment, fear, envy, and jealousy, are products of the ego... So the single most vital step on your journey toward enlightenment is this: learn to disidentify with your mind. Every time you create a gap in the stream of mind, the light of your consciousness grows stronger."

So on that note, namaste....

In The Club

I went to the club last night. Its been a minute so I thought I was going to be able to let it loose and drop it like its hot. But I have some issues with the club.

1. Promoters- Stop!!!!!! Just cause our throwing a party does not make you this cool ass dude now, no your not Diddy sorry boo.  Also, please stop lying on your fliers. If you have open bar, have open bar dammit. I'm sorry one of the reasons I'm coming to this sweatbox is for a free drink. So when you say you have Hypnotiq and Nuovo open bar until 1AM, have it you dicks. I just hate when ppl lie. And why are all of yall at the door, move bitch get out the way. 

If you don't know, only one promotional team holds the weight and can actually tell ppl what to do. So when you see 30,000 names on the flier only one group is actually in control. So you other hanger-ons STOP.. thanks!

2. DJs- Are they still alive? WHERE DO YOU DJ? I don't want to hear 3 minutes of any song I can do that in my house. Please keep the ppl interested.  Can you play something in 2008, yes I am an 80's baby but I don't want to hear 80's, 90's music all night. And stop talking on the damn mic cutting up my jam (ahh 9's lingo oh well) I don't know what your saying you sound like your trapped in a damn closet talking into a styrophone cup.

3. Fights- Most fights occur when niggas can't hold their liquor. When yall start fighting you mess up my night because I have to run for cover..lol and so is everyone else, so we all end up tripping over each other. 

To make matters worse a girl and guy got into a fight at this particular club, are you kidding me???? That was a straight bitch move and I hope the bouncers got it in with the guy. All I want to say is if you think you may fight count to 3 and walk away. Your not a punk your just smarter.

4. Guys- Its so weird I don't want to see guys in white tees but at the same time I don't want to see u in a collared shirt. I swear all the guys looked like they just came from church. No type of style going on. There are so many wack nigs in the club. Its not your fault you have to wear hardbottoms and a collar but come on get it together. No I don't want you, but I always like to see eye candy. The girls do it up so won't you give it a try.

5. Where is everyone going?-  Stop effing moving, where are you going. I can't even get a real dub in cause a B is bumping me or touching my back, trying to go where? I don't know.. Yet again, where are you going? I feel like I'm on a human carousel that won't stop..haha. Of course you don't have to stay in one spot but why is this the 25th time your passing me. Nothing  has changed within the last 5 minutes. The bar is still in the back and YES I'm still standing here. 

Sorry for ranting but it just pissed me off. I'm not giving up on the club plus I don't club as much as I did years ago so I know its different and maybe my expectations are just greater.

Ok, until later babes.

So this is where her night started

J-Weezy look at what I found. While perusing through myspace I found the girl who was laid out and low and behold I found out how her night was...lol. I think she came to the place alone, she had too. There were more pics but I didn't want to expose her.

Pure Buffoonery- Get THE F*CK UP!

Are you kidding me right now? Are you kidding?

1. Get the F*ck up off the floor
2. Where are your friends?
3. Why did you have so much to drink?
4. Why are there ppl standing around and dancing and not helping you up?
5. I hope you don't have any kids
6. Where are your shoes?

So Much Has Happened

Damn J-Weezy it has been a minute. So long, that I forgot my damn password lol. What a mess.

So what's been going on with me? I finally moved into my apt in Williesburger. I'm free yalll!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't have any damn furniture just my big ass tv, bed and a fold up chair..haha. But I'm going to hook it up and when I do I will def be posting pics.

Love Life...

I met a lil young thang ( i got some age on him) the beginning of August. Things were cool for the most part and he was cute with a nice whip and he seemed to be into me but now he did a disappearing act and I haven't had any contact with him since Friday, like wtf. I dont know about him now, so that is up in there. But they always come back with a bs an excuse don't they.

I'm still on the prowl but while I'm home alone I'm thinking about figuring myself out and being happy. Having no one to talk to gives you time to reflect.

When I finally get cable and internet I will definitely be on here more often. Until later babies

It's Been A Minute

I have writers block, I don't really have anything to blog about except that its Monday again and its back to the daily grind of making it through work and staying positive about being cooped up in a cubicle.

I did start school which is just another thing I can add to my list I need to do, but overall so far so good...

Anyone watch the VMA's last night. That ish was wack, I hate when the performers don't perform on the main stage, idk it takes away from the energy, I like to see how the audience and other celebs react to it all. Rihanna looked fab as usual and Pink did her thing, other than that..womp womp..Brittney Spears should have performed last night to redeem herself from her horrid attempt last year.

The Planes From Hell

So this weekend I went away with one of my good friend's to Orlando for her mom's 50th birthday celebration. The party was really nice and I enjoyed myself, but getting there was the worse...

Our plane was schedule to leave on Friday at 7:30pm. Now the weather started acting a mess rain, thunder, lightning so we expected delays. So my moms checks Jet Blue's schedule and they said the flight was pushed back to 8:30pm, ok cool. So we get to the airport at 7:oopm. 

Now this is when the bullshit starts...

The flight gets pushed back to 9:30pm, ok we're still in chill mode. Then it gets pushed back to 10:15pm, ok fine. Me and my girl got happy juice (yup in the airport straight drunks..lol) so that holds us up for a minute. They change our gate so we make a move there. Everyone is a big annoyed now. Flight pushes back to 11p then 11:30pm then to 12a.  Mind you the person at the desk isn't telling us shit, just sitting there looking dumb. The only way you knew anything is if you personally went up there and asked him. 

THen the flight gets pushed back to 5am, 5am I repeat. WTF!!!!! They hand out blankets and juice and bullshit ass crackers. I don't know what I would've done if I was alone I was annoyed and wanted to sleep. I have never been in the airport so long. We still keeping our composure then these numnuts tell us the flight is cancelled. Cancelled hold up, I know that is not what I am reading. I have been in the airport damn near 10 hours and they tell us the shit is cancelled, where's my gun?

So we get on line to get our money back while we wait some Jet Blue workers come and say "What flight are you cancelling?" I reply "Flight 43". The man says "Oh we have rebooked it for 6am, get your boarding pass". YIPPEEEE.!!!! We dont get to miss DKH's moms birthday. ONCE WE BOARD WE'VE BEEN IN THE AIRPORT FOR 12 HOURS. 

RETURN FLIGHT...

We took delta back and for the most part we were doing well. We got to JFK early about 30 minutes early, however we couldn't land. So we were in a holding area in the sky...lol. When the captain made that announcement I thought it was so funny. So we circling the sky for a good 30 minutes...arghhhh. Then we land only to not have a gate to park in. HOW EFFING NICE....not. So now we take a tour via airplane of JFK airport. Never did that before. We end up at some deserted runway which looked suspect ass hell and ended up staying there for another 30 minutes.

Then we get a gate but the plane is too damn big and the captain can't manually park himself. So we have to get towed into the gate which takes another 20 minutes. Finally we get off the airplane and ppl are taking forever to get off. LIke damn didn't you know at some point u had to have your shit packed why wait until 50 ppl are standing behind you.. Arghh some ppl are so annoying.

I'm home now, I never thought that was going to happen but I'm here. God Bless!!

Got A New Boo In My Life

and his name is Collen Jones...lol..haha. Not only did he just win the gold medal in the 4x100 relay Sunday and set a new world record (making him the 2nd African American to win gold in swimming), he has a non-profit to help minority children learn how to swim.

So hes tall (6'5) , has a nice body, and gives back to the community...ahh shucks.....

I Like Them As A Couple

While watching Luke's new show "Parental Advisory" on VH1 I decided to give it a thumbs up. His fiancee Kristin is 27 years old is doing the damn thing. . She is well educated and seems like a good match for him. She is well rounded but yet she helps him with his porn empire (what man wouldn't like that). I like her and I rarely like these dumb ass reality people.

So ladies you never know who you might fall head over heels for, that goes for the guys too.

I hope they stay together cause you know what happened with Nick and Jessica, Dave and Electra. Sometimes these reality show couples don't make it.

A Short Jamaican & Cranberry Juice

Disclaimer- (1) Identities have been masked to protect the innocent (2) I am a Jamaican

So Saturday night I attended an all white affair bbq bday celebration. All and all it was a great time with good friends, drinks and dancing.

Anyways, all was going fine until I got into it with this short lil Jamaican guy. Basically him and his other Jamaican homies had a bottle of liquor on the floor and some cups full of juice or alcohol on the FLOOR, like they were in a real club, just standing around the shit...anyway, I don't see the juice as I'm walking by and knock it over, which annoyed me because why the f do you have a cup of juice on the floor in the middle of where everyone is walking.

So then this short cunt comes up to me in his Jamaican accent and says "You drunk.... you look likyah drunk"

I'm caught of guard like "Huh, are you DRUNK?"

he repeats himself like he didn't hear me " you look likyah drunk" and then he gave me the rude boy pose just looking at me so I ignore his ass and he goes to the "bartender" (who happened to be my friend regulating the liquor) to ask for juice. I see that and I'm like hell no , so I wave to my friend and was like "Don't give him nothing".

He sees this and it infuriates him so he comes to me and says " Aye, what happened to you, me can go buy me own cranberry juice" and at this time I'm dancing looking at him and give him a smile like he is crazy cause I wasn't trying to have him mess up my fun and then I hear him saying to the people he came with"What happened to this lil' idiot gal here she don't know me can go buy me own cranberry juice".

LOL, which was hella funny to me not only because of his lil stature but because he got so angry about the cranberry juice. Anyways end of the story is he rants and raves and storms out the bbq.....stupid rass cunt....Lesson learned, don't mess with a lil angry Jamaican guy and his cranberry juice.

Been Gone For A Minute

I got my tooth pulled on Saturday and my whole grill was numb. I mean that had nothing to do with my typing skills lol... but I've just been in an aggy mood cause some of the right side of my face is swollen and I can't eat the way I want. But then again I have to lose 20 lbs by December so that may be a good thing.

I've just been working hard and doing the damn thing. One of my good friend's 25th B'day Celebration is coming up this Saturday so hopefully we snap some cute pics for all to see. She got a theme too, "All White", you know we can't end the summer without an all white affair...lol.

Let me know what's poppin... I'll be back

79CENTS!

Ok..any one who knows ME, knows I love Mexican food. There is this spot where I work called Baha Fresh..if you didn't know, now you do.. To me that ish is off the chain. I really order like 2 things but its fresh Mexican food that's a good price. The enchiladas are as equally gratifying as sex ...yeah I said it!

But I had some Taco Bell just now and did you know them mofo's got a 79cent 89cent and 99cent MENU! say word. They got some nacho shit smothered in cheese, that red sauce and beans for 79fingcents...you don't have to tell me twice. I think I'm about to get addicted to this shit yall...

Grass Is Always Greener

Can you relate?

When you have one thing you want another? or when one person is the "main event" in your life you are looking at the sidelines wanting the "sub" to come in? And when the "sub" comes in to play you looking at your "main event" like no I want you back in the game..............

I am such a fickle person. Sometimes I can't make up my mind about the smallest thing, its ridiculous. When I make a decision I always second guess myself and wonder if I should of chose the other option.

Is this a sickness? Is this normal? So dramatic right , lol.....

How am I ever supposed to be content with anything in my life when I am always wanting and wishing for something else or something more...sigh

Damn I'm Losing Again

So I go on a diet or "heath lifestyle" change about every other month...haha. Im not a big girl but I just like to be in shape. When I was college I was a small lil thing but 3 years later its a bit of a different story. I stay motivated for a bout 3 weeks then I go back to my normal eating habits.

But a change gone come:

So I have a bet with my ex-boo(long story with him, maybe one day I'll touch on that) that I have to lose 20 lbs by Dec 20th. If not I have to give him 50 bucks and take him on a date to wherever he wants to go. If I do loose the weight he has to do it for me. But now Im thinking that my french fry eating ass shouldve upped the bet and asked for something like a trip somewhere.. DAMMIT man!

Now the issue is my moms and some of my friends think that 20 lbs is too much weight for me to lose. My moms said 10 lbs would be good or I will look strung out. I remember when I was in school my pops swore I had an eating disorder. No I love food too much to stop eating it.

Wish me luck, I have to make it. I can't let him beat me. If anyone has any tips on helping me reach my goal please let me know, any little bit helps.

Thanks Boo!

Question: Is This Sexy?

Ok, so I went to a party the other day and saw this guy there (exhibit A above).

When I saw him he had his sweater buttoned up but you could see the tattoos on his neck a little. But he must of wanted to get sexy for the camera and did a on the spot photoshoot before I left..lol

Now, I love some tattoos and all but WOW this is a bit much no?

Ladies, is this sexy? I mean it shows that he has a lot of tolerance for pain but also maybe crazy? I'm not sure. Its very creative and makes me wonder what kind of job he has cause I know he not walking around Goldman Sachs like that..lol

In any event, Ladies - Does all this ink make this dude sexy? Would you holler?

I can't make up my mind yet, I need some more time to ponder....hmmmm

If He Was The Last Man On Earth

Which one would you pick? You have to reproduce with one of them. Remember, there is no running water, electricity, their money means nothing and the world is in ruins. So he would ultimately be your future baby father.

This was a tough call for me. I don't like to call anyone ugly cause you can find beauty in anyone and anything. I personally wouldn't date either but I am pretty sure there are thousands of girls who would differ.  

So if I was the last woman on earth and I had to choose between T-Pain or Lil Wayne as my King, I would have to go with Weezy. He already has the tribal marks so we already have a head start.

Gots To Be A Better Way

So I am sitting here at work once again wondering why I am here. I mean I know I'm here "to make a living", you know "get a check" blah blah blah but really why the hell am I here?

The work that I do here in 5 days I can really do in 1 or 2! but I have to stretch it out and appear to be busy cause that's what everyone else is doing. But wtf! really, why do I have to sit here and pretend to do work? or do work that is stupid and that I have no interest in??? I work in a tight lace corporate America environment, most people here have kids and spouses and its like they live their life to work. They wake up and go to work, hardly see their families, they don't have anytime for themselves to do the things they want, they get 2 measly days a week to relax and really we all know Sundays aren't that relaxing because all you are doing is thinking about having to go back to work on Monday.

Now I am very blessed to have a job when so many people out there are looking for work but on some real shit, life is not meant (let me talk for myself) MY LIFE is not meant to be toiling behind a computer pretending to do nothing. There has to be a better way! I don't want to work the best years of my life away. I will not be here much longer, you can bet the ranch on that one. I refuse to go out like that. Lil Mama loves her life now but I know I am destined for much more. So my possible escape routes that I have been plotting have been through entrepreneurship (Empressmag.com) and investing in Real Estate, none of the escape routes are even close to being usable but I am planting the seeds for them so that one day I can rely on these two things to set me free from this cubicle hell hole.

Any one else out there feel like me? And if you do, what steps are you taking to free yourself from the "rat race"?

Yet Again...

So I guess I'll share another encounter with the guy who made me vomit in my mouth, I'm keeping it short though. Its not good to focus on dumb things lol. I don't know why I pick up the phone or even call sometimes. I think it's straight boredom. One of those nights where you're tired and you cant go to sleep and you basically have nothing to do with your time.

Anywho:

We were talking through text and the conversation wasn't going well so he said call. So I did and he is very agressive on the phone at first, "you dont want to f*ck with me anymore, what kind of shit is that..blah blah". Well I didn't know we were item... wtf I just got bored writing this, I'm a mess...lol. I'll have to continue another time. This shows you how much he matters in the spectrum of things.

On another note: This is so far left

Abu Dhabi a nation within United Arab Emirates now has a 90 percent stake in the Chrysler building. They are building so fast out there they will have a Guggeheim Museum wtf!, a NYU campus, they may have the world's most expensive hotel at 3 billion dollars and ppl my age (21- 30) make around 180,000 US dollars tax free. Why? you may ask, because they sit on 10% of the world's oil. Look at how much you can learn if you watch the Today show for 2 mins in the morning.

So do I move to Abu Dhabi and start anew or sit here making crumbs for 8 hours a day?

Answer This?

- If you could choose between "good" dick on an ok man and a great man with an "ok" dick who would you pick? (you have to choose one)

- If you could choose between a career that paid you enough to live simply (budgets, coupon cutting and all) but was exciting and a career that paid you enough to buy and go whatever and wherever you desire but was boring which would you pick?

- Would you rather be married to a poor man who provided you with pure love and consistency or married to a rich man that provided you with security and adventure?

I Realized...

1. That it is hard as hell to Blog at work. Why the hell can’t the Blogger dashboard look like an excel sheet lol. I have to close my window so much because a coworker or my manager is always on the creep.

2. That you won’t always do what people want you to do. Your human you’re going to do things that may seem wrong to others but who cares at the end of the day, you have to do you. Everyone will always have something to say but I’m finally coming to a point in my life where I actually don’t give a damn.

3. That I get annoyed easily. Not mad or upset but annoyed. Annoyed at the fact that men don’t give up their seat for woman on the train, that my sisters always get the same weave (damn can I see yall in a different length one day, surprise me). Annoyed that I have to wake up 7:05 in the morning 5 days out the week, then at 7:30am on Saturdays to get my hair done just to leave at 6pm, or if I do it myself it takes 2 ½ hours of blood sweat and tears. Annoyed that people talk when obviously I’m not listening. I can go on for days.

4. That one day my apartment will be finished and I can finally move in. I’ve been trying to move in since March but management companies are dumb.

5. That I love those who love me. I have a good family, a fly ass crew and one day I’ll have a mate that will adore me. Sometimes I think he only exists in my dreams but one day he’ll appear.

6. People get out of pocket and you need to put them in their place.

7. I need to hit up South Beach before the year is over. Ooh how I love that damn place.

July 4th / I Love Money

So July 4th took off. At first i was a bit nervous about where I would end up but everything turned out ok. On Saturday we even crashed a bbq. Suprisingly, I never did that before and I was a bit nervous. Shoot, ppl in Brooklyn are crazy and people get shot for less. But it was cool. Then another bbq we went to got shutdown by the 'jump out boys' and they took all the liquor. So you know the bbq was definitely over for me when that happened.

Next topic...

VH1 needs to stop! I Love Money was wack to me. The funniest part was when Midget Mac's dumb ass couldn't get off the boat. That was hilarious, I was really wondering who the hell was going to get him. I'm just tired of these hasbins trying to stay in the spotlight and why is Hoopz so diesel. Her body is nice but she looks like she'll knock a nig out. I didn't like the way Midget Mac attacked her calling her a ho' and all, mad disrespectful. You have daughters jerk take it easy and you have a baby mother too. Talking about you spending 50g's on the strippers lol.

Pics From Itallian Night

All of our dishes

My Dish- Casserole

Sha Sha's Dish- Chicken Marsala

All of us about to get our grub on, everyone has the serious face

Damn son theres enough for everybody

Getting Full?

I am

Still cute though

Sha Sha

This is what happens when you mix tequilla with white wine

You start posing on the floor

Goddammit somone help me up!

But we still manage to vogue it out

Lil Sister Moments

My liltles sister is only 11 years old yet she has a blackberry curve, her own lab top and a social life that is more poppin that mines. Not only is she just a fly lil kid but she has a 95 average at the honors juinior high school she attends and is President of the Junior Beta club. She dances and swims competitively and she is funny as hell. I just can't wait to see the type of woman she becomes and if she is even a fraction of what she is now then the world better watch out. Anywhoo here is a IM convo we had the other day (yes this lil child is on IM, I didn't even know what IM was until I was in highschool...LOL..kids now-a-days) By the way I CAN SING!!lol

---------------------- 12:26 pm ----------------------
Shain3: jamila i jus noticed that u and rihanna look alike
jweezy: No we dont
jweezy: Lol
Shain3: yes u guys do its not even da hairstyle but da face
Shain3: exactly alike adinas at my house and she says da same thing
Shain3: twins
jweezy: No way
jweezy: I look like kelis
Shain3: adina said u do so let me c
Shain3: da only difference is u cant sing lol
Shain3: u look like both of them
jweezy: Lol
jweezy: I can sing
Shain3: lol u r kindin right!!!!
jweezy: Lol
Shain3: ur at home
jweezy: Yes but I am about 2 leave
Shain3: where r u goin
jweezy: Out n about
Shain3: oh k peace love and sisterhood lol i crack my self up
Shain3: bye milla
Shain3: jemi
jweezy: lol
jweezy: By shaina baina
Shain3: luv u
jweezy: Love u 2

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Dating Story 1: Vomit In My Mouth

Yes, I am single and boy do I have some stories to tell but thats another day. So recently I've been talking to this one guy, I met him through J-weezy's boyfriend (his crew and me, a whole 'nother story as well..lol)

So me and this guy, lets call him Jamal, have been on two dates. I won't front I enjoyed myself but there were no vibes. Meaning he was someone cool to hang out nothing more nothing less. My friends kept saying give him a chance, cause to be honest from the jump I wasnt really feeling him. But hey I dont have a man, Im hungry so why not fill my stomach.

But this sentence is where it all went downhill, "I want to lick you all over". EXCUSE ME!!!! Who the F are you talking to? Now I have been "nice", hardly drunk and I know better than to text while drinking. So on a drunken night he texts me that. First that just showed me you can't 'hold your liquor', man up. Secondly, you have no control. Like ill.

I let him know it made me feel uncomfortable and not to do it anymore, but then this ass did it again. It turned me off so much I believe I vomited in my mouth. He sealed his future with me, meaning there was no future. So the hunt for my boo continues ...

Empress: Why we Stand by It Why we LIVE by IT

Shaleia & I do not follow the tarot card thing but people always ask us why we use and revere the word Empress. Well its for many reasons, and you will find out more and more as we post and share our stories but the Empress tarot card is mother figure of the tarot card deck. To us Empress means all things and everything, its what we are as women rulers of this earth. We command love, power & respect in all things we do. We give life and meaning to all things we encounter. Empress is not a mere label, its a way of life, its how you carry yourself, ruler of an empire. The Empress tarot card is just one example of the power of what Empress means to us.

Introduction to the Empress Tarot Card Meanings:The mother figure of the Tarot deck, the Empress Tarot card meanings are all about love, abundance, nurturing, and pleasure. When we observe the card we see elements of nature - all exploding on the card - the Empress brings about the flood of growth and is the epitome of abundance. She reminds us that there is always enough for everyone to enjoy. There is no shortage.

Shield: The Empress abides by one motto: "From love I do come, from love I do go" and her shield is a testament to this creed. The Empress knows (as we all should) that when we enter all situations with the shield of love, we are always protected. When we envelope ourselves with a force-field of love, there is no need for fear. The shield is a paradox - we think of protection - yet the emblem of love (Venus, a heart) is pictured on the shield. The paradox is that where there is love there is instant protection, yet to love also requires our vulnerability.

Waterfall: Water is a universal sign of motion, emotion, abundance, and also gives the reader a concept of abundance as it is usually depicted on the card in the form of a waterfall. This symbol expresses the ability of the Empress to open up her intuitive resources and allow abundance to flow through her freely. Consider the exhilarating rush of a waterfall - expansive and powerful - even a little frightening as it crashes against the rocks. The waterfall is a reminder that with tranquility also comes extreme force - we must be mindful of our capacity to love and create - as well as our ability to hate and destroy.

Wheat: Wheat is a universal sign for nourishment. With it comes the association of harvest. This symbol is a profound expression of the Empress in her nurturing glory. She assures that all the elements are in place so that growth occurs, and bounty is harvested. She also reminds us that the seeds we sow are in direct relation to the harvest we shall reap. The wheat is also a symbol of a process - a time to sow, a time to grow and a time to pick the fruits of our labor. The Empress is keenly aware of time and the part it plays in manifesting our desires. Let the wheat be a symbol to us that our desires are not usually on "microwave time" (press a button & it's done). In short, it takes time to see the process of our desire unfold into our reality.

Yellow Cabs Drivers Can Suck A C*ck

Now I'm not talking about all yellow cab drivers but most of the ones in NYC are assholes who have no respect for other drivers or people on the road!

I'm driving minding my business going to work this morning (about 1hr late, but that's besides the point) and this cock of a yellow cab driver just comes over in my lane without looking so my right side bumber and his left back bumper meet.

This rass has the nerve to look at me like I caused the accident. So I'm yelling at him like "Why the f' didn't you look before you change lanes, pull the f' over".

He pulls over and gets out of his cab acting as if he doesn't know what is going on. I ask him more calmly why he didn't look before he changed lanes and I tell him I need his info.

Now those who know my car know that old Betsie has been through a lot, I have a couple dents here and there, a bunch of scratch marks and my hood is not the same black color as the rest of my car (but again that's neither here nor there, I digress). That does not mean my baby should get disrespected and scratched up.

The only visible signs of my car from his cab was yellow paint which all together isn't that bad because I can always use a buffer to get it out. But I was still pissed. I also realized that I didn't have time to stand and argue with this man over something that wasn't that serious, I didn't feel like calling the cops to do a police report or getting insurance involved so I made him admit it was his fault (cause at first he said it was mines) before I drove off. Anywho the point is yellow cab drivers can suck cocks, they drive as if they own the streets and now they are trying to take over my Brooklyn streets. All I know is that he is lucky that wasn't my future range rover or benzino, ooh girl we would of had problems. But its all good, things could of been worst and I made it to work late but safe.

Baby Borrowers

I'm tired but I can't sleep, whats new. So I decided to sip on some jesus juice and watch tv. I'm watching this new show on NBC called "Baby Borrowers" where teenage couples get a taste of what it is like to have a child. Will it make them or break them?

First of all why the hell do you want to have a baby so young. Do they really want a taste of 

what its like to be a young mother? Then they should've grown up with my ass. I have 6 nieces and nephews and they started appearing...lol... when I was 11. Imagine sharing a room with 2 sisters and a baby, oh my. My older sis had her first child at 18 so I saw first hand what the 

struggles were being a young single parent. And boy did it teach me a lesson. I dont want no damn kids anytime soon. They don't listen, they cry, they talk back, they wine, they walk slow, they cost money and I can't bring them to the club with me. When I'm ready, I'll have them but for now mama needs to live. 

P.S. Y'all heard about those donkeys in Massachuessetts who made a pact to get pregnant together. I don't know how true it is but they are surely going to get what they asked for.

The Two Sides of Jweezy: Sample Argument

The Positive Jweezy says:
I love my life, I am truly blessed. I have great friends, a man that loves me really loves me, great health, a supportive mom, an awesome lil sis, I own my own place and am about to own another, a job that pays the bills, I can go on for ever but...

The I don't care I want what I want now Jweezy says:

Why do I have to sit in this dumb ass cubicle from 9am to 5pm and pretend to do work that I can do in 1hour, why do I have to smile at my stupid co-workers when they pass me in the hallway, why do I have to do work that don't really mean ish at the end of the day, urgh! It's so nice outside, I want to be free, I want to be in another country backpacking and seeing something new, I want to be on South Beach with Superman or Call a Cab in my hand , a large one! (wet willies drink, for those that don't know), I want to sleep until I feel like getting up, I want to do something everyday that makes me happy. You know they say the goal in life is not to be happy but to find something meaningful to do , to not be bored. I just don't want to be bored. Im 25, these are the best years of my life, I don't want to waste them in this GOD DAMN CUBICLE! dlkfwdknsdfk

The Positive Jweezy says:
Relax and think about things, are you really wasting your life? Stop being so dramatic. Everything you have ever done has lead you up to where you are at this very moment. This job you hate so much has allowed you to own you own property, B! you about to own another, ish aint that bad obviously because if it was you would find a way to quit, move on , escape. Some people don't even have jobs or a career, don't even have a place to call their own. Life is good.

The I don't care I want what I want now Jweezy says:
Yeah Life is good but Life is short, too short to be stuck in this cubicle!

The Positive Jweezy says:

O shut the F up, find the everyday joy's in life now, you don't have to wait to quit your job to do it. Happiness isn't a place or a setting, its a state of mind. Learn to work with what you got. The universe is perfect, it is cause your exactly where you need to be at this very moment.

The I don't care I want what I want now Jweezy says:

URGH, ok ok you won this time miss goodie two shoes...but I'll be back....

Hard Times At Douglass High

Ok so I have cable with HBO.. I'm not bragging but I do..lol. Which allows me to catch some great documentaries, cause you know HBO is Fire.

Anywho last night I watched "Hard Times at Douglass High..." and it was good. It documented kids from an inner city high school in Baltimore and the many challenges they faced. At first it just felt like these kids didn't give an F. Well let me not say that, cause with parents, motivation and a sense of worth any kid can make it. But these kids were just trying to survive. There were 17 yr old ninth graders, kids who played in the hallway and almost every girl they spoke to had a baby. I was at a loss of words.

One part that really got to me was when the basketball team lost their championship game (or some important game) and the team captain went on a rant on why kids sell drugs or play ball. That the man is just setting them up to fail, that they will end up spending their lives in prison. Yes, I do feel school systems in the inner city are definitely not equal to the school systems in the suburbs but when do you start taking responsiblility for your own actions. When do these kids stop blaming other ppl for why they are 30 in the 10th grade.

My first instinct was to feel sorry for the teens and I could empathize with a few of the kids they showed. There weren't many books for them to use, the school was understaffed and most teachers weren't certified. But then I got a second wind and my view changed. I couldn't feel bad for them after a while. In life you have choices and you are the only controller of your destiny. So if you want to act like an ass in the hallway instead of sitting in class learning something, so that maybe one day you can make something of yourself, thats your fault. If you think a wicked jumpshot or selling crack is going to get you the hood, then you need to get a life. The man is never going to root for you, cause its easy to keep you down, so don't let them.

I also wanted to run through the school with a belt acting a fool cause they were BAD.

You can learn more here http://www.videoverite.tv/pages/filmsmain.html

O yeah- Postings Coming Soon On Italian Night With The Girls

We are going to be posting the pics and run down of Itallian Night this past Saturday. We hads lots of food, lots of fun and lots of DRINKS!!! We didn't leave our homie Dag's house till 4:30am...smh...

Enjoy Being FREE!

Ok, so in Sha Sha's last post she talked about hanging out with her friends and talking to them about being single and how the most of them had boyfriends....Yup you guessed it, I was one of those friends telling her to enjoy her single life. Basically I have been dating my boo, man, other half for 6 years, yes you read that right, 6 YEARS! lol (we had a few breakups in that time but for the most part have been together). We met freshman year in college and I didn't know what hit me. Honestly, I was never one of those girls who wanted or needed a man, never understood how people so young could be so serious. So you can imagine how weird I felt being smitten with a dude so young and in my prime ;) - I was only 19.

Now while I don't regret finding love so young I do often have moments of un-clarity such as "What the hell am I doing, I'm too young to be so serious, What else is out there, etc" I have grown out of most of those thoughts as I have matured and have also dated other guys in the time when me and my honey were broken up.

But nonetheless its is very much different being 25 and single and being 25 in a long term relationship. I tell Sha Sha all the time to enjoy her singledom, to love not having anyone or anything to answer to (not that I do, but when your in a relationship, you have to think about the other persons feelings and be respectful to a certain extent). She can wake up every morning with infinite possibilities of who she will meet, she can go on tons of first dates and get the jitters and butterflies of now knowing what will happen.

Our dating patterns have been 100% opposite, I have been in a relationship and she has been single for the past 6 years of our friendship. So we both see the good and bad to each side. For the most part, I just want her to be happy being single and to enjoy it because when she does meet "the one" she won't have any regrets or thoughts of "Have I dated enough ppl, I'm too young for this, etc" She will know when she meets "Mr Right" because for her she has dated so many "Mr Wrongs".

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Gettin It In

So I'm single, yeah I know it may be hard to believe but this Diamond Princess doesn't have a man as of yet. So I do what any other single gal do, put myself on the strip and see if I can get any takers haha. But dating hasn't always been fun for me.

This past Saturday I was having a convo with a few of my girlfriends (who all have men.. so sometimes we don't relate when it comes to certain things) and they were talking about how happy I should be about having endless possibilities while dating, the butterfly feeling and the freedom to do what I want. Now I have moments when I think of those things but my brain is usually like this " when is he going to call, damn the bill is over $50 I hope he don't act up, what does he want from me, no I dont want to go to your house the first time we chill, yes I like attention, why can't he stick to his word, no I don't want to kiss you ppl have diseases in their mouths, was that text meant for me, ".

However, after the discussion I thought to myself maybe I should just make my dating experience fun. I still got some years in me so why not take advantage of this freedom before I really am locked down. Plus the grass always looks greener on the other side. So let me just handle mines for now

Its Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Who Hoooooooooooooo

I don't know about yall but it's Friday and I'm feeling gooooddddddd. The weather is nice, I don't have to get up early tomorrow and I have a couple events lined up over the weekend that I'm excited about, ie. sister recital & Italian cooking night with my homies.

Any special plans this weekend (other than drinking) lol , cause I know how some of yall do?

My First Time!

So I'm in here, for real this time. I'll be talking about everything from my frustations in the workplace, trying to do this entrepreneurship thing, maturing to great friends irritating me (usually occurs during the morning or midafternoon but it comes with the territory), my dating woos (it goes up and down on any given day), good times and just my unrated, undocumented life.

Note To Self: Possible Wedding Photographer Found

No, I'm not getting married anytime soon but I think I found the guy that I want to take my wedding photos. Check his blog out here. His pics are dope.

We're Back Bitches- Unfinished Business

Hey everyone...as you can see I haven't created any post in a while. But I am going to be more consistent, I promise...

Which reminds me how many things/business/ventures have you thought of doing and you never followed through with? For any reason, whether you got bored or lazy with it or it just didn't work out.

I (we) have (had) a couple of ideas:

Clothing Line/Jeans Company
Party Hot line
A Series
A radio show
A cab company
etc
etc
etc
What are yours?