Thursday, October 23, 2008

Almost Missing

I find myself missing someone I shouldn’t. I hate when that happens and it usually occurs between “my boo” stages. It's when I just stopped dating someone and now I’m creeping for the next boo..lol. But why do I miss him?

I could be myself around him. I could curse, drink, yell and do other things without him looking at me weird or making me feel uncomfortable. That type of guy is hard to come by. The type, where you can sleep on his bare chest and drool (yeah when I’m that damn sleepy anything can happen lol) and when you wake up and realize what happened and your embarrassed as hell he wipes the spit off his chest and says “don’t worry about it” and puts your head back on his chest. DAMN! Or he’ll give you his last 20 dollars so you can get your hair done because he felt that is what a man should do.

But we’re not together for a reason. Although he showed me attention and cared for me, it wasn’t meant to last. He loved his homeboys way too much, he went to jail twice for 30 days and never told me why, what type of shit is that. To this day I still can’t believe I let him get away with that one lol. His ex, at the time I’m pretty sure she wasn’t his ex, kicked in the door while I was there (that’s another story). Then after a while he was just broke and didn’t want to do anything with his life but party and buy clothes. He wasn’t the dependable guy I knew before and I was over it.

So I guess I just miss the good things because the bad things are way up there too. I wonder how he’s doing it’s been a few months since we last spoke and he usually reappears every other month. So hopefully he’s happy or maybe missing me just a little too…haha.

5 comments:

Da Hunni Toya said...

ITS OKAY TO MISS HIM AND ITS OKAY IF YOU FEEL LIKE YOU WANT TO JUST PICK UP THE PHONE AND CALL HIM JUST TO HEAR HIS VOICE.

SHOOT I HATE TO ADMIT THAT I MISS MY BABYFATHER AND THAT NIGGAH PUT ME THROUGH HELL I MEAN HELL (YOU COULDNT IMAGINE) AND NOW I MOVED ON BUT I ONLY MISS THE GOOD TIMES I HAD WITH HIM.

Jweezy said...

Damn I feel you...

its ok to miss him or to just think about him because thats what our minds do, go to the good or remember the best about the person.... at least you know there are guys like that out there that exists and trust me you will be able to find another

For now just ride those feelings out that’s what I'm (trying to do) I MEAN doing ;)

Dorianne said...

its good to miss the good times but also important not to forget thebad times.. Don't get too caught up in memories and orget why u broke up...

Sha Sha said...

Definitely try not to get caught up. Plus he isn't in my face and its been years since we dealt w/ each other like that.

Memories...

n0days0ff said...

He never told you why he went in? I can't even judge cause I had. Someone disappear on me one time and we didn't break up.sigh...what a life